between my fulltime brain-draining job and my life as a single woman with a ferret, it's been hard for me to draw.

i'm updating just so you know i'm alive and that my life is completely different now.

what i love about being single is having so many friends and being able to cuddle or stay elsewhere whenever. that's nice. freedom. mmm.

i'm growing tired of it right now, though. i still wish for one person in my life to devote myself to. the bachelorette life is cool for now but it is not really me. i'm growing sad that i can't find an awesome enough guy for myself. ha.

...yeah.

oh, sorry? since when? we broke up in june. he moved out in august. i loved someone else--and still do somewhere inside (we shall marry in three years if we are still single mhmm)--til october. distance hurts too much.

started dating then. i didn't know the spectrum of different feelings you could have with each person you meet. it's like choosing a flavor. people has flavour!

i found a couple flavours i could grow very fond of, but nothing compared to what i felt in september. not that i compare, i just know what i want to feel like.

by the way, ferrets rock house.